Sunday, February 27, 2005

cramming mode on.

so many things to be done. and yet i haven't started any of it.

-anmath3 quiz2
-litera komedi reaction
-litera short paper

that's about it for now. but i still have to catch up with my studies. i've been absent since monday (excused absence for our production). well, except for intphil last thursday. that's the only class that i attended for this week.

i really have to study now. and get back to work.

posted by marfel @ 1:48 PM

Saturday, February 26, 2005

something for myself.

i better keep this in mind.


remember, no one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

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posted by marfel @ 5:44 PM

Thursday, February 17, 2005

patlang.

hai. ang hirap naman ng ganito. nawawala na naman ako.

andito ako sa computer lab. katabi ko ngayon ang inaantok kong mahal. pero dapat wala ako ngayon dito. dapat asa SJ304 ako. nakikinig. nagsusulat. ng sangkatutak na equations na hindi ko naman maintindihan. kung makinig naman ako sa matanda kong propesor, aantukin ako at lalong mawiwindang. kung isusulat ko naman ang lahat ng nsa black board, hindi ko rin naman maiintindihan at baka manghula pa ko sa pat-iinterpret ng aking naisulat.

para san ba to? sagutin mo nga..

pagkatapos kong aralin ito at maipasa, san ko ito gagamitin muli? pag-nag-apply ba ako sa trabaho, ang exam ba nila ay puno ng mga equations na ganito? e IQ test lang naman ang ieexam satin a.. pag-nag-commute ba ako at magbabayad sa drayber, kelangan ko pa bang gamitin ang isa sa pinakasimpleng equations na ibinigay sa klase? nalagpasan ko na ang bababaan ko, hindi parin ako tapos sa pagcocompute. kapag mamimili ba ako ng aking sapatos, kakailanganin ko ba ito sa pagtanda ng size ng aking paa?

hindi naman di ba? so para san ba to?

ang hirap. napakasimple ng buhay. bakit pa natin kelangan gawing kumplikado. hindi ba pwdeng aralin ang mga bagay na makakatulong sa ating pagtanda? mga bagay na maaaring tumulong sa ating bansa?

sana wala na lang anmath3. sana iba na lang. pwd ba? ayoko nang bumagsak. pero para hindi ako bumagsak kelangan kong aralin at kabisaduhin lahat ng formula. kundi ta-tumbling lang ako sa test.

sana wala na lang anmath3. sawa na ko sa anmath. dalawang beses ko nang inaral ang anmath1. dalawang beses ko na rin inaral ang anmath2. pati ba naman anmath3? dyosko!

sana wala na lang anmath. mag gugustuhin ko pa ang accounting, ang poligov, ang philosophy, at iba pang subjects na alam kong magagamit ko sa pagtanda ko. ung tipong matatandaan ko pa siya pag tumanda ako.

pero dahil un ang gusto ng eskwelahang ito, pansamantala ko munang aaralin ang mga formula. mahirap pero dapat ko ata itong aralin, kundi babagsak na naman ako. at malamang uulitin ko ito.

ayoko nang mag-take2! sawa na ako!

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posted by marfel @ 12:05 PM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

what day is tomorrow?

today is febuary 13. well obviously, the date tomorrow is febuary 14. which means, it's the time of the year to see red everywhere. literally. when i went to the mall two weeks ago, nagkandahilo ako sa dami ng pusong nakasabit. almost all stores have decorations for valentine's day. even restaurants have their own pakulo for this occasion. Max Restaurant, same with other food establishments, has combo meals good for 2 persons. in short, for a couple.

so, what is with this day? it's valentine's day. and in my opinion, it's supposed to be "sacred". i mean, there shouldn't be too much advertisement for this day. masyadong commercialized ang araw na to. hindi na nakakatuwa. i even don't feel like celebrating it. i'd rather find another day, an ordinary day for everyone else, but a special day for me and my baby to celebrate.

it is also during this day that every single woman on the planet (except for those who gave up on finding someone) feels insecure. coz they are being slapped with the truth that they are single/still single. and that they should find someone fast! cmon! valentine's day is not merely for couples. its for everybody. and nobody should feel insecure.

im bitter. and im not single.

i have my baby. and i can celebrate valentine's day with him anytime.

tomorrow is valentine's day. and it's our monthsary. :) hope it'll turn out good. *fingers crossed*

posted by marfel @ 6:35 PM

Thursday, February 10, 2005

school stuff.

intphil: i just had my first Long Exam in Introduction to Philosophy. sobrang hirap. as in! i can't believe that i woke up early just to meet up with Terrie and discuss every symbol in the Allegory of the Cave. i studied my entire notes. i even studied alison's and pam's notes. and i also answered pam's first long exam, for practise. i thought it was the same thing, but NO! totally different. the only thing that was the same thing with pam's test was the part of plato's and aristotle's quotations. argh!!! so confusing! and that's part one. wait til part two. on tuesday! argh!
i'm beginning to love philosophy. swear. last night during our prod work, while painting our backdrop, we were discussing philosophy and things were finally clarified. it was like studying for the test but more of just having fun with philosophy. it was really fun. arguing about this. arguing about that. but the thing is, my prof is ms. laureen velasco. the OH MY GOD! with such thing as Long Exams. she's cool. really cool, promise. Intphil's my first class every tuesday and thursday. at 940am, i'm still sleepy, but once she starts talking im fully awake. she's so funny and so expressive. everytime she do a funny thing with her face, all i can think of is that she can act in theatre. with that very big movements, she'll be a hit with the director. anyway, she's really good when it comes to discussing philosophy, but she's an OH MY GOD! when she gives long exams...

anmath3: i cut my anmath3. i was not in the mood to attend this class, and i have to do two assignments for my litera1 class (420pm).

litera1: a paper and a drawing. the first assign is the paper, have to write a story that resembles the story Megamall. only one page is required, but until now, haven't written half a page. the drawing will be drawn by cha. it's just a sketch of a subterrania of your life. i asked cha to draw the wslt. hehe..la na ko maisip.

i better get back to work. my baby just texted me. warning me to start typing the story. and to stop net surfing. :D

note: subterrania means any area that lacks sufficient light and air. it also means the dark world beneath the real world.

next note: one can have its own subterrania. look for your place. meaning, any comfortable place, away from the reality wherein you can have peace inside and outside. it can be your own room, just any place that you feel secured when you are there. got it?
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posted by marfel @ 1:29 PM

Monday, February 07, 2005

crap!

terrie is beside me here in gox comp lab. and surprisingly, she's not uttering the word crap!.

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this day is a big CRAP! the sun's too hot. ang init ng ulo ko. we fought again. nagswimming ako sa sports complex. super dami ng tao. all boys pa! argh! can i say it one more time, crap!


posted by marfel @ 7:34 PM

leche!

argh! im really confused with this journal. somehow, in over 4 hours last night, i've managed to post only one entry, edit my profile and browse through their help guide. and that's it! i couldn't figure out how to put a usericon nor a picture. until now, i haven't figure out how to put them. im done downloading the hello,whatever. and that's supposed to help me upload my picture! argh!!!

posted by marfel @ 7:00 PM

Sunday, February 06, 2005

it's new and old. or something.

i was browsing my mail (deleting non-sense mails and reading the unread ones), when i saw that i signed up for this journal 2 years ago. and i also signed up for blurty just last year. and i also found out that besides my active journal in tabulas, i have another one there.

whoa!

i really don't know what to do with all of my online journals. oh well..maybe this could come in handy today or someday.

be right back. soon. :D

posted by marfel @ 7:56 PM